Describe Your Mother in One Word

  If I had to describe my mother in one word, it would be: Breathtaking. 

This word still does not do her justice, but it's the best one I could find that describes her beauty, power, peacefulness, patience, kindness, diligence, amazing talents, loveliness, humbleness, intelligence, hopefulness, and many other traits. 

  I know there are times where I want to scream and tell at her; to let out all my frustrations at her, to show my anger about something at her. But, if I did that, she would prove to me why it would be wrong to do. She'd show in the most motherly way why she does what she does, even if it makes me upset sometimes. I'd be shown why she was made a mother, and why I am the way I am, because of her. 

  If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be the person I am now. She does everything in her power to open my eyes to how special I am, but I always close them because I don't want to believe her. 

  She loves me unconditionally, and nothing I do will ever be enough to show how grateful I am for that. 

Rain Sound

No harp or horn

Nor brass or string, 

Can ever out beat the

Sound of rain

Flowers For Kristine

She makes herself a cradle by the oceans gentle breeze. The dew and morning dove's song are her lights and symphony, and her audience is the sea. The memories hidden in a past life's tail, rest in these flowers for Kristine. 

Why Can't I Do it Right?

  I've tried wrapping my head around this, but I still can't seem to grasp it...why does everything have to be so hard...? I try taking a step forward and I'm pushed three steps back.  

  I just want to make you all happy...

Poem For You Dad

Lyrics (In the Works)

  I find myself hitting cloud nine when I see your lovely face. So don't you go changing to try and appeal and appease, you're so much better then fake, Barbie-plastic charades. 

  Don't let yourself become chained up in all the dark masquerades. Just keep on callin, keep on singing, let your voice be free. Don't let it fade. 

Song Lyrics (in the works)

You can keep all your unanswered phone calls 

And lack of keeping up with promises made into unorganized piles. 

I've held my tongue for far too long

But now I can't shut up. 

I used to be soft

But now it's mission impossible 

To even break my barrier. 

I keep my distance

Hoping no one (someone) will find me

In my corner of shadows. 

I can't count how many times I've tried walking out,

But every time I only get burned by the sun. 

I can't keep up with these waves

I can't keep swimming against the current. 

All these lies chained me down

Holding my hopes in a cage

All my effort wasted on careless

Actions. 

Rap Lyrics

I drown myself in dreams sometimes just to keep myself from the miserable realities. Because we had so much history behind us, but now there's nothing left.
And now I only have a six string and a microphone, to let you know that I am all alone.
But you can keep up your masquerade if that's what keeps you happy. There's always gonna be that next girl, there's always gonna be that new game.
A clean slate
A new plate
I'll step back and watch as you spin your own web of lies and get tangled in the center.
I'm just the 20, compared to the others. Keeping up an image is hard work, and hiding those boney closets must be tiring for you.
What hides behind doors stays behind doors, just like the sin filled city.

My Own Personal Hell

I wake in the night
As the storm rages by me
The only light that's given
Is by the sea-raged lightning
The cracks of thunder
Hinders my sound
As it screams in my ear
For me to turn around.

My feet won't move
As my heart beats faster
The lonely clouds crying
Are my soul's one companion.
The rain hits my flesh
Like ice cold needles
As the warmth of body
Slowly leaves me.

Don't tell me to remember
Because it hurts too much,
Don't beg me for forgiveness
Because what's done is done.

My only prayer is escape
From this place I call hell,
I've known it for awhile
On a personal level.

"Fire Fire" Lyrical Break Down

I've recently been obsessed with the phrases: "We can't die because we're young, at least that's what we heard in a song" & "what you confuse for glorious fire is fire from the tongues of liars".
They are both from Flyleaf's new song "Fire Fire" (very good song, you should listen to it) and every time I hear them I can't help but think of the state out country is in today. So many people are led my false sayings like "we can't die because we're young", and it is the main voice our young people are chanting at concerts, political events, and other things. It's what plays on the radio, in movies, books, tv shows: it's everywhere.

I think we need to take a little time to pray for the well being of our country, we are the next generation. And if we keep this up we will no longer continue to be the great country we pride ourselves on.

Music

You can't judge people based off how they look, you can determine what sort of personality they have by the type of music they listen to. The most uptight, high strung, prim and proper person could listen to an artist that would have been the farthest from your mind when thinking of that person. Music determines what's in the heart, so before you judge someone, consider what songs play on the inside.

The Expendable Heartbeat

If you'd stop and listen I have a heart too, I have a soul, I have feelings, I love just the same. You say I can't make my own decisions as you decide my future, you say I can't speak up because I don't count in your book. My voice is too small, my eyes don't see the full world, my hands can't grasp reality yet. My feet have never tread it's own trail so it won't matter since I haven't left my mark. You choke me until my heart can't see everything it did before. There's no more soothing voice speaking to me in tongues, no voice saying its gonna be ok. Don't think I didn't know, I heard everything from the wingman to the right, but I still don't understand one thing

What did I do wrong?

Haunt

I see your smile every time I close my eyes. I hear your words, in the silence of the night, like a ghost from Christmas past. I can't keep it away.

Your memory haunts me, it showers it's cold, steel sting. I can't get away, I want you to stay. But this heart can no longer take the pain.

Please don't judge me by my words. Just see my actions, and they'll give you so much more. This memory will soon pass, and you'll find someone new. But no one could ever love the way you do.

~~~~~~~~~~~~

I smile as I see you walk away. You promised me, that we'd forever stay the same.

~~~~~~~~~~~


Empty words, broken lies, twisted movements. We had it all, but now it's lost. I watched as we, and everything we had, crumble to pieces. Please don't forget me though...

We had it all in our hands. We told the world where we stand. This beauty has a beast, hidden behind its smile. And it's gonna take more than that to run the mile.


I don't even remember why I wrote this haha XD

Fight

You stand there hoping for a daydream. But it's too late, the moment's passed. You'll have to fight for something more, because Ive already found my way.

Stand up and keep those fists flying, you'll never win by lying down. Dying is not an option in this game.

Don't let the words reach you, their only gonna leave scars. Keep looking ahead and you'll be just fine. I'll be waiting on the other side.

Stand up and keep those fists flying, you'll never win by lying down. dying is not an option game.

(unfinished)


Another old script.

The Way to Break Up

Even if it hurts, know how to hide it. Even if tears start to fall, know how to hold them back. If the memory starts weighing down your heart, know how to smile.

These empty days without you will soon fade away. And I will be more comfortable with every passing day.

Forget my face if it makes you feel better. But don't try to find me... I will already be gone. Don't cry for me, I don't want to be drenched in your tears.

This letter is something you can do whatever you wish to do with, but don't saver my handwriting.

So even if my memory is hurting your heart, know when to block it out. Don't linger on the past like you have done so many times before.

I wish the best for you, I always have. So turn your face toward the sun, not the shadows.

Forget my love for you ever happened, because I won't be there to help you through your hard times anymore.

Even if your heart feels as though it will rip in two...know how to sew it back together...

This is the way to break up...



This was something I wrote based off of lyrics from a sone with the same title.

Someone

I lost someone today,
And now their memory
Seems so far away.
The reminiscence of
It is like looking in through
A broken window at warm faces.

This cold feeling, that comes
Only when I see their face
Is something of which
I cannot erase.
I slept idly as those years past.
It seemed to go so slow
Yet so fast.

The one I lost is another
Soul's gain, but I pray it will
Be in a different way.

If only there was
More I could do
To keep the tears
From falling anew.
This life will only last awhile,
Before we cross
The heavenly tile.

So perhaps I'll see
That someone again
Not in this world,
With this life hard spent
But in another, for our
Souls well kept.

This is one I wrote around this time last year, just thought of post it. ^^

Oops

I guess I kind of forgot about this blog...as well as my other blogs. My bad...(;._.) heh...anyway I'll be posting some random things or other on here more often now that I remembered. XD I know I'm probably just talking to myself, but that just makes it feel like my own personal diary ^_^. I don't mind that too much, as long as my artsy stuffs has a home.

Wibbly-Wobbly Timey-Wimey

"He's like fire and ice and rage. He's like the night and the storm in the heart of the sun. He's ancient and forever. He burns at the centre of time, and he can see the turn of the universe. And...He's wonderful."