My Own Personal Hell

I wake in the night
As the storm rages by me
The only light that's given
Is by the sea-raged lightning
The cracks of thunder
Hinders my sound
As it screams in my ear
For me to turn around.

My feet won't move
As my heart beats faster
The lonely clouds crying
Are my soul's one companion.
The rain hits my flesh
Like ice cold needles
As the warmth of body
Slowly leaves me.

Don't tell me to remember
Because it hurts too much,
Don't beg me for forgiveness
Because what's done is done.

My only prayer is escape
From this place I call hell,
I've known it for awhile
On a personal level.

"Fire Fire" Lyrical Break Down

I've recently been obsessed with the phrases: "We can't die because we're young, at least that's what we heard in a song" & "what you confuse for glorious fire is fire from the tongues of liars".
They are both from Flyleaf's new song "Fire Fire" (very good song, you should listen to it) and every time I hear them I can't help but think of the state out country is in today. So many people are led my false sayings like "we can't die because we're young", and it is the main voice our young people are chanting at concerts, political events, and other things. It's what plays on the radio, in movies, books, tv shows: it's everywhere.

I think we need to take a little time to pray for the well being of our country, we are the next generation. And if we keep this up we will no longer continue to be the great country we pride ourselves on.

Music

You can't judge people based off how they look, you can determine what sort of personality they have by the type of music they listen to. The most uptight, high strung, prim and proper person could listen to an artist that would have been the farthest from your mind when thinking of that person. Music determines what's in the heart, so before you judge someone, consider what songs play on the inside.

The Expendable Heartbeat

If you'd stop and listen I have a heart too, I have a soul, I have feelings, I love just the same. You say I can't make my own decisions as you decide my future, you say I can't speak up because I don't count in your book. My voice is too small, my eyes don't see the full world, my hands can't grasp reality yet. My feet have never tread it's own trail so it won't matter since I haven't left my mark. You choke me until my heart can't see everything it did before. There's no more soothing voice speaking to me in tongues, no voice saying its gonna be ok. Don't think I didn't know, I heard everything from the wingman to the right, but I still don't understand one thing

What did I do wrong?

Haunt

I see your smile every time I close my eyes. I hear your words, in the silence of the night, like a ghost from Christmas past. I can't keep it away.

Your memory haunts me, it showers it's cold, steel sting. I can't get away, I want you to stay. But this heart can no longer take the pain.

Please don't judge me by my words. Just see my actions, and they'll give you so much more. This memory will soon pass, and you'll find someone new. But no one could ever love the way you do.

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I smile as I see you walk away. You promised me, that we'd forever stay the same.

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Empty words, broken lies, twisted movements. We had it all, but now it's lost. I watched as we, and everything we had, crumble to pieces. Please don't forget me though...

We had it all in our hands. We told the world where we stand. This beauty has a beast, hidden behind its smile. And it's gonna take more than that to run the mile.


I don't even remember why I wrote this haha XD

Fight

You stand there hoping for a daydream. But it's too late, the moment's passed. You'll have to fight for something more, because Ive already found my way.

Stand up and keep those fists flying, you'll never win by lying down. Dying is not an option in this game.

Don't let the words reach you, their only gonna leave scars. Keep looking ahead and you'll be just fine. I'll be waiting on the other side.

Stand up and keep those fists flying, you'll never win by lying down. dying is not an option game.

(unfinished)


Another old script.

The Way to Break Up

Even if it hurts, know how to hide it. Even if tears start to fall, know how to hold them back. If the memory starts weighing down your heart, know how to smile.

These empty days without you will soon fade away. And I will be more comfortable with every passing day.

Forget my face if it makes you feel better. But don't try to find me... I will already be gone. Don't cry for me, I don't want to be drenched in your tears.

This letter is something you can do whatever you wish to do with, but don't saver my handwriting.

So even if my memory is hurting your heart, know when to block it out. Don't linger on the past like you have done so many times before.

I wish the best for you, I always have. So turn your face toward the sun, not the shadows.

Forget my love for you ever happened, because I won't be there to help you through your hard times anymore.

Even if your heart feels as though it will rip in two...know how to sew it back together...

This is the way to break up...



This was something I wrote based off of lyrics from a sone with the same title.